Last Day!

So todays was last day of classsesand you have no idea what thta means to me! it means freedomno more fucking chemistry no more fucking lachance god i how i hate him.. no idea why but whatever thats not the point.. but i got losts of presents from my oh so incredible friends....adn thenin a hour and half i have to go to work which is a not so cool thing but whatever.. i actaully dont mind work that much i mean its better than my last job that is for sure.. lol but yes...but now that school is out i dont have to listen to teachers bitchign about how i dont hand in assignments or something because i really dont try anymore and they all go your capable of so much more and im just like how the hell would they know they dont know me but i think they jsutmight say to everyone in hopes that they will get more ppl to pass lol ** le sigh**.. but yes i got cds and slippers and starbucks gift cert and marilyn monroe book<3 and other things alena found in her room <3<3 lol she is the most crazy girl you will ever meet in your like i cant help but lover her i admire in away because she really does not care what people think o her which is truly admirable in my books lol

wel HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

To End with......

So ... here i am 2 weeks later... i guess im doing okay as well as can be excpeted i suppose, i mean after having a fmaily member die oyu never really recover do you?.. i mena sure you deal with it you move on but oyu never really forget. like when shoppin for xmas presents its like oh what am i gonna get grampa and then you think oh right.. not here my mistake and then you get all teary eyed and everyone gets lal like oh whats worng and then everythingis all akward adn well im sure you know what i mean. and christams really is the worst time for things like this you know.. cause just when your getting in the spirit of things you crash to a screaming halt when then words grandpa died last night are uttered in your direction. I dont even know what to do to help anyone because i dotn knwo how to help myself......
MY mom she has taken his detah hard and why wouldnt she it was her dad but sometimes i think she acts as if she is the only one who has suffered a loss here and thats just not true i lost my grandpa i know grandparenmts are supposed to die adn it happens but you cant help but have it shake up your world.. and when i get upset about ppl always say you should talk about but why should i burden ppl with my issues theyve got their own shit to deal with and ppls grandparents die all the time why should i be special... another thing he was the only good prandparent that i had the other two would prefer that i never exsited and you know thta is always super duper... GOD!!!! life is so fucking unfair..... its always the good ones that die while the assholes and fucktards go on to live happy full lives... .... **sigh** I guess ppl were right when the said that lifes a bitch